A Letter For My Sister

Salam.

These past 6 months, I've kept something inside my heart. About you, my sister. My deep apology for everything that I couldn't do for you.
Here's my sorry starts from...

I'm sorry, for being absent through this hard times. I'm sorry, I'm not there with you through Baba's lowest time.
I'm sorry, you have to let go your dreams for this time to take care of Baba.
I'm sorry, if sometime I over-excited over here, while you having a bad time over there.
I'm sorry, if I can't be there when you need to talk, when you feel lonely, when you lost everyone that was there for you.
I'm sorry, in your young age you have to work, earn your own money, to support your own life and help Mama.
I'm sorry, in your young age you can't enjoy your life to the fullest, as I did that time.
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.

But
I promise you, I will work extra hard here, to make sure everything will goes smooth in a future.
I promise you, I'm gonna make all your dreams happen. Maybe not now, but later.
I promise you, I'm gonna make you feel the happiness you missed.
I promise you, a better life ahead of us. Insha Allah.

Thank you for being so supportive and patience during our family hard times.
Thank you for being mature even before your time.
Thank you for being an eldest sister even you're not.
Thank you for your time, your loyalty, and your big heart.

I always miss you and love you.
I promise you, a better life ahead of us. I promise.

Unwell

dear bloggie..
Hi everyone!

Maaf ya lama banget ga ngepost. Maaf juga buat my dear Icha Yahya, kita belom sempat curhat tentang masalah "itu". Gaktau kenapa, tiba-tiba kemarin sibuk dengan hal yang sekarang gw sendiri gatau apa yang gw sibukin kemarin *tuing-tuing*. Terus, akhirnya, gw jatuh sakit udah jalan 2 hari ini. Sakit apa ? Badan rasanya gak enak banget, kadang panas, kadang anget, kadang juga dingin. Terus, idung terasa panas dibagian dalem. Tiba-tiba flu dan mampet. Nyiksa. Kepala rasanya pusing banget. Dan, gw baru benar-benar menyadari betapa gak enaknya sakit disaat kita sedang merantau lebih pentingnya lagi tanpa seorang MAMA disamping kita. Rasanya, walaupun ga begitu sakitpun jadi tersiksa. I miss my Mom so much. Kangen sama cerewetnya kalo pas gw lagi sakit. Semua jenis makanan dimasakin supaya gw makanan itu bisa masuk ke leher gw dan gw cepet sembuh! What an amazing Momma!

Gw berdoa semoga gw bisa cepet sembuh, Soalnya gw juga ga pengen berlama-lama ngerasain sakit yang gak jelas ini. Si Gio juga ngajakin ke klinik dari kemarin-kemarin. Tapi, gw males banget, ga suka sama dokter Malaysia, soalnya mereka kasar. *Ups sorry*

But, thanks ya Baby udah ribut-ribut ke telinga aku tiap hari ngajakin ke klinik. Heheh..

And thanks Mommy, jadi nelfonin gw mulu tiap jam. I promise you mom, i'll eat well, I will take a long rest, and take care of my health. Love ya.

xx