A Letter For My Sister

Salam.

These past 6 months, I've kept something inside my heart. About you, my sister. My deep apology for everything that I couldn't do for you.
Here's my sorry starts from...

I'm sorry, for being absent through this hard times. I'm sorry, I'm not there with you through Baba's lowest time.
I'm sorry, you have to let go your dreams for this time to take care of Baba.
I'm sorry, if sometime I over-excited over here, while you having a bad time over there.
I'm sorry, if I can't be there when you need to talk, when you feel lonely, when you lost everyone that was there for you.
I'm sorry, in your young age you have to work, earn your own money, to support your own life and help Mama.
I'm sorry, in your young age you can't enjoy your life to the fullest, as I did that time.
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.

But
I promise you, I will work extra hard here, to make sure everything will goes smooth in a future.
I promise you, I'm gonna make all your dreams happen. Maybe not now, but later.
I promise you, I'm gonna make you feel the happiness you missed.
I promise you, a better life ahead of us. Insha Allah.

Thank you for being so supportive and patience during our family hard times.
Thank you for being mature even before your time.
Thank you for being an eldest sister even you're not.
Thank you for your time, your loyalty, and your big heart.

I always miss you and love you.
I promise you, a better life ahead of us. I promise.